A bird doesn't sing because it has an answer, it sings because it has a song.
-Maya Angelou

Tuesday, November 22, 2011

Adoption


Adoption is something that has been in my heart for as long as I can remember. I don't truly understand why (well maybe I do now) but it's always been there in the back of my mind. I remember in college while working I would occasionally look at adoption websites at children's photos. I still remember one little boys face in particular from Romania. I fell in love with that little picture and tried to convince anyone around me at work to adopt him.


Throughout the years we have been raising our kids it has come back to me often. I would research on the internet for awhile, come to the realization that it couldn't happen and tuck it away in the back of my head again....and again...and again. Over the years I have researched many different programs, collected adoption agency information (I have a file folder full), and wondered and prayed "why?". Why am I thinking about this so often. Each time I felt reassurance that there was a reason I was thinking about it, but I didn't know what it was. It's expensive, I didn't know that it was something we could ever or should afford.


I had researched many countries. Haiti, Marshall Islands, Ethiopia to name a few. I am on yahoo groups, and had contacted agencies. I knew quite a bit. I had landed on Ethiopia. We were sponsoring a girl there to go to a better school. We attended shows with beautiful native dancers and learned about charity organizations working there.


Along the way Chad mostly thought I was crazy, blowing smoke, and unrealistic I think. He let me blab about this country or that child's photo. He let me tell him about adoption tax credits and so and so who adopted 3 children from this country. He's let me browse adoption blogs until my eyes are red and I think he just let it go in one ear and out the other until it didn't. Along the way his heart has softened and he's realized that this wasn't really going away. While his head still worries about money...his heart has said yes...YES!


Awhile back I felt like I should just be patient and an opportunity would maybe drop in our lap so to speak. Well here it is. In our laps. You see, over Memorial Day weekend we go camping in Idaho with Chad's parents and their friends. Some friends of ours, that live in our neighborhood, also go with our group. While we were there I asked about my friend's dad who works in Africa as I had done before. This time my friend mentioned that his mom who visits an orphanage there had fallen in love with a little girl there and really wanted to see someone adopt her. And there it was....in our laps. I quietly started asking questions. You see few people knew about my desire to adopt. It was something I kept fairly close to me over the years. They told me what little they knew and then told me there was picture of her on Facebook with my friend's mom. I disappeared for a bit to find my phone and look on Facebook. I found the picture. I found her. She's in Ghana.


Here we are many months later, waiting to hear if her grandmother will sign off on the adoption. Waiting...waiting...waiting... That is international adoption. It's amazing how The Lord works though isn't it. How He sees the big picture.


So far we have completed our home study, put together a dossier of a mountain of paperwork, had doctor visits, fingerprints, background checks, gotten passports and visas, fed-exed galore, researched and researched some more and right now it comes down to what her grandmother decides...as it should. And we are waiting. We are blessed to have people like my friend's parents and wonderful people that they know working on our behalf in Africa. Though I can't show you pictures yet I can tell you that she is probably 5 though we're not sure. She has a beautiful smile and loves my friends parents dearly and I can't wait until she can come home.


And so we wait.

Monday, July 18, 2011

Emma Lou

So yesterday was my birthday and I couldn't resist uploading Emma's take on the birthday song. That other one was getting boring anyway :) Don't forget to mute my tunes all the way at the bottom.

Wednesday, July 13, 2011

Sweet Dylan

Click on the following link...

Doin' it 4 Dylan: Free....: "Early this morning, 1:20, our sweet Dylan went to heaven. He is free from the tumor. He is free from any pain or sadness. It was not eas..."



I am truly sad and will greatly miss Dylan...

Wednesday, June 22, 2011

ADORE

Here is my cute nephew. I just adore him. He speaks his own language, loves sports already and is a pretty happy dude. We went to the golf course to catch a few shots of him only he didn't want anything to do with the camera so we got what we could. Isn't he handsome!

Saturday, June 18, 2011

Hello Testing Testing One Two Three...


Well hello...(I'm sure I'm talking only to myself by now)

It's been awhile! So I guess I took a blogging vacation. I can't guarantee that I'm back regularly but here I am today. So far we've had a good start to the summer vacation despite the weather. Last week we went to the library, went swimming, and went to Lagoon. We went camping over Memorial Day weekend and we've survived another baseball season. Here's a cute picture of Ethan waiting for his turn at bat. It was so fun to see him progress this year. His team did pretty well, by the end of the season they were really playing well...hitting pretty good, catching, and making plays! He also went to football camp last week. He loves sports but he loves playing them with his friends the most. Here's to hoping I can blog again before another 6 months goes by.


Thursday, March 10, 2011

I'm Sad

I know it's been awhile since I've posted and I hope to get back to it soon after a little break, but I had to share why I've been very sad this week. This week one of my (can I say my?)Primary children received some hard news. He was diagnosed this week with a brain tumor (wrapped around his brain stem). Yes a brain tumor. Doesn't that just make your heart sink already. Those words are awful and heartbreaking. He's 9. Not only is he in my Primary but his mom is a sincere friend. We have worked together in the Primary, Madelyn dances at her studio, I have worked for her there until this year, and have been with her other numerous times where I have been at her house laughing, gone to a movie, or chatted about life. She is strong, beautiful, incredibly talented, just had a baby, and in for the fight of their lives. Since I found out the tears have been very close to the surface, bubbling over many times. If my mind isn't focused on some task at hand then my thoughts are there in that sad place. I can't imagine the depth of their fear and sorrow. Dylan is a fantastic, cheerful, happy, friendly, funny little boy. I love to call on him to help in sharing time because I know he will put a smile on all our faces, that's what he does. He makes everyone around him happy.

Hug your children tighter, smile at them more, tell them you love them, and remember our Heavenly Father loves each of us. He is there for us and he has a greater plan that we may not understand but we are not alone. We are never alone. If anyone feels they can spend a moment on your knees for Dylan and his family, it I'm sure would be greatly appreciated. Our ward is also starting a fast on Saturday that anyone is welcome to join in on or next time you fast. Also the family just started a blog if anyone is interested. http://www.dylandshaw.blogspot.com.

I do need to blog again soon. I have birthdays, programs, and holidays to catch up on. Until then....adios.